How about you stop struggling?

 

You are conflicted. You don't know what to do. You have a split soul, a divided mind and you don't know how to become whole again. Just like our ancestors, Adam and Eve, you found a hole and you try to plug the whole with fig leaves of self-righteousness. You embraced religionism. 

You're hurting inside so you try to find solutions outside. You pile one religious activity after another, hoping that one of them will distract you from the pain of having a divided mind. Instead you found out that no matter how beautiful fig clothes are, they'll dry and fall down. You end up naked. Naked before a holy God and you have nothing to cover yourself.

So, a result of self-deception, you cover yourself with more leaves. You become more religious. Since you realize you can't do it alone, you recruit others. You bully them into joining your religious games. You call them names ("unfaithful," "not true believers," "apostate" etc) just to bully them to join and participate. You lashed out at them, you scolded them into joining your therapy disguised as religion. And when they don't, you become resentful. You become bitter, you become angry. You're destroying yourself.

What should you do?

How about cease whatever you're doing and take rest in your God. You've been doing everything on your own power and limited as you are, you're stretched too thin and frayed at the edges. You're ready to snap any moment. 

You're fun to be with (no, I am being sarcastic). You're so caustic, the floor is melting wherever you are. Joy becomes nonexistent. Others are already affected. In your self-delusion, you believe you're the one, what you didn't know is you're the poison that is corroding whatever relationship and fellowship is left. 

Stop. Step back. Step down. 

Cease struggling and know that we have a God who valued relationship over performance. You don't need to prove to Him you're worthy of love. He already loves you. He is asking you to enjoy that love and extend it to others. 

Stop before you burn everything you have worked for. Stressed people don't do well. 

Manatiling nakapokus sa biyaya. Huwag ninyong hayaang nakawin ng mga huwad na guro ang inyong karapatang mag-isip ng doktrina. 

(Kung gusto ninyo ng karagdagang impormasyon, bisitahin ninyo kami. May pagtitipon kami sa Dahat, kada Linggo, kada 1:00-3:00 pm. Sana manampalataya kayo at kita-kita tayo.

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